Saturday, February 12, 2011

Grace and Rain

We gave her the middle name Grace because the day she was born was an exercise in Grace for both of us.  I woke from the full anesthesia, numb, broken and weary.  It was hours before I was able to see her and longer until I held her for the first time.  The agony of that time has almost been erased, now.  The healing, while never fully complete, has certainly run it's course.  She has infinite grace for me, loving me in spite of my shortcomings, never holding a grudge and always willing to cry with me.  She is my graceful child, ready to dance, sing, perform and show me what she can do.  And every day she teaches me about grace and patience.  Oh, lots of patience.  I pray that she will know what it means to Worship with abandon, that she will be free in her spirit to always know God, and that she will know His calling in her life.  Grace. 

We gave her the middle name Rain because God told us it would be a year of increase for us, and it has been!  Rain often symbolizes spiritual blessing as well as physical blessing. Her birth occurred on a rainy day in July, the storms brewing outside while the storm of labor brewed in my body.  Her birth flooded my pain and sealed, finally, the wounds from the birth of our first daughter.  I pray that she will be a leader among her peers, a girl who knows her mind and will sway others to do the right thing.  I pray that she will always bring blessing, not curse, wherever she goes.  That she will speak life into others and they will know God because of her words.  I pray also for her, as I do her sister, that she will always know God's plan for her life and most of all that she will always know Him. She is Rain to me, always smiling, always willing to flow with our haphazard plans and best intentions.  Rain.

These are my girls, my greatest blessing, and my number one job.  I've never been happier, loved better, or been more sure that I'm absolutely doing the right thing with my life.  Just wanted to share with you all.  :)


Tiffany said...

Beautifully written, Tori! LOVE those sweet girls.

My Inner Mystic said...
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My Inner Mystic said...

Tori - you are a beautiful person and like you, your children are beautiful, adorable little beings. It sounds like Grace's birth was traumatic. I am happy for you that you found healing around that experience and that it has opened your heart to love and joy.

PS Thank you for visiting my blog. Seeing your comment was a happy, tear filled moment for me.